Sadly, my beloved Musician and Music and English Teacher father Laurie Ralphs passed away in March '18.  He once played on stage as a back up guitarist for the famous John Farnham.  And he starred on the Burt Newton show too.  They say he sounded like Cliff Richards.

Sadly my mother has been spiteful and decided to disinherit me.  Here is my dear friend Chris's reply to me.

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she cant disinterested you sister Julie your inheritanceis in Christ Jesus nothing your mother has can be compared to the riches and glory of His inheritance for you by the time your mother is buried that which she has will be relatively worthless anyway and in the life to come only adds to the measure of death that we deserve Heaven and earth (yes even heaven) shall pass away but the word of God shall remain

From all that you have shown me the only way your mother knows how to get power, control and respect; is through abuse, manipulation and money. Her inheritance is the all consuming fire that even melts gold and diamond into liquid nothingness; what then of our flesh and our gold and our silver? What will become of the thin plastic curren y we use today caled money? All of it shall perish and our soul with them if we love such things! Your mother is poor and unless she repents her poverty shall be made known to all. Why would you want to inherit any part of that which she has gained through corruption? Nethertheless do not forsake her as she has done to you. Your mother probably believes she has been wise and brouvht harm to you by not giving you an inheritance but she is a fool because God has dome a good work through her and she knows it not! Give thanks to God that He would not let any corrupt thing enter your hands. You are blessed!

The Lord is protecting you from evil on every side.

Central focus on God

One of the words by Beloved Jesus, that my dear friends keep telling me is ' Central focus on God'.

Rebecca from the Healing Rooms gave me a hymn:-

Eyes on You, Lord,
Eyes on  You,
Through the laughter,
Through the pain,
My only answer,
My only truth,
Eyes on You, Lord,
Eyes on You.

Dear Margaret at the ' Healing Rooms' saw my table in my room. It is one of the main and only pieces of furniture I have in my humble abode. On it is placed my devotionals and Bibles. It is where I sit in peace and meditate on God's WORD. Margaret sees a picture and is shown a vision of my table from God. She sees a similtude - a comparison in scripture verse with a similar (or different) area of life. Her verse for me shown by God is in Psalm 23- A table with everything you need. By Julie Ralphs

By Definition:-
''A “similitude” is an extended “figure” (simile, “Bildwort”)," and she sees similitude as a level before the “parable”.
A semblance; an image: a similitude of the truth, 4. a likening or comparison in the form of a simile, a parable, or an allegory. Thus God's “Believer Similitudes” are how God sees His people, His believers. "

Notes from Healing Rooms in Feb 2018.

In the barren landscape- wintery and cold, Tulips grow. The church elder at the Healing Rooms had a vision or similitude image as shown by God. She saw a field of tulips popping up and covering the frosty ground. This rich imagery pertains to my life as she saw it for me now. 

I am pleased to say that there has been reconciliation within the family. It's an answer to my dear friend's  prayers for the family.  After being estranged for a long time, we are able to talk again. Praise God!

Dear.......

With regards to your comment ' Don't rehearse it'.  My concern is for receiving prayer for abuse from my mother which is happening now , not abuse in the past. The Counsellor has told me that the abuse which is concerning me is not historical , but alive and dynamic. It's abuse that's been happening right now.  It's not past abuse. I spoke with my dear friend Alex Robb who is a Christian with a considerable knowledge of the old and new testament. He states that neither the old testament or new testament mistake forgiveness for amnesia.  Amnesia and forgiveness are very different things.  I have forgiven my mother for past offences but i am not mindless nor is my mind empty.  I am aware of my mother's behaviour both in the past and in the present.  And I need prayer for healing of current abuse by my mother not past abuse. 

My friend Alex assures me that what I have written about is a direct and faithful reflection of the teaching of Jesus.  Which may be summed up as Christians are called to forgive but not have amnesia. Also we should 'share one another's burdens and thus fulfill the work of Christ.'

King Saul said to David ' Forgive me and come back to live with me in the palace.  David replied ' I think it best that I remain on this hill and you on the other hill', He did not have a failure of memory.  He was well aware that although Saul had been forgiven by him, Saul could not be trusted.  My situation is exactly the same, I have forgiven my mother, but I am well aware that she cannot be trusted.  

Alex assures me the teaching of the old testament is identical to the new testament on the topic of forgiveness and salvation.   Jesus said not a single part of the law would be denied by Him.  That He came to fulfill the law not to abolish it.  Alex said it would be a good idea for people to move on from the milk of the word to the meat of the word.  And there are too many Christians  that are bottle-fed babies.  Anyone who denies the old testament denies the new testament. The old testament is as important as the new testament.  The teachings of the old and new testament stand or fall together.  If one can be ignored then so can the other be.  

The teaching that all people will be saved is a Christian heresy called universalism.  The actual teaching that noone will be lost is universalism.  It says that Judas went to the place that was appointed for him and he would not be saved.   It says there is no rest for the wicked, so prayers for wicked people are definately not always appropriate.  Our assumption is that our thoughts are the same as Gods thoughts, but God says my thoughts are higher than your thoughts and my ways are higher than your ways.   Prayer is about agreement with God in what God intends to do.  With regard to sum of the things I've been urged to pray about, it is far from certain that they reflect what God intends to do.  It says we are to work out our salvation with fear and trembling and it is my mothers responsibility to do this.  There is no Biblical evidence that suggests I can substitute my actions for my mother's actions or lack of actions thereof.  My mother needs to work out her own salvation with fear and trembling, not say that's my daughter's job.  The idea that I could do so is an  historical Catholic idea and not part of a protestant thinking.  

Much love in Christ, 

Julie

My Director friend of the Healing Rms reply letter to me "Hi Julie,

I agree with you all the way. Yes we do continue to forgive actions as they occur - Jesus says 70 times 7. Past actions are forgiven, and also present ones. That way we live in freedom, free from bitterness. But as you say, forgiveness doesn't mean forgetting. But when the reminder of offences come, we can say, "Yes, she did that, but I have chosen to forgive her. Father God bless her in every way."And if you are choosing to bless your mother every time satan prompts you to recall what happened, it won't be long before he will stop reminding you. 

Nor does forgiveness necessarily mean reconciliation. As you have said, people who have hurt you have broken a relationship, and that cannot be restored overnight. Trust has to be earned, and it would be unwise to do otherwise. 

So we bless you Julie in your journey, deeper into Him, the lover of your soul.

With many blessings

.......

Many Saints were persecuted by their family. ''The first recorded act of violence was due to family persecution—Cain murdering his brother Abel out of religious jealousy. King David bemoans the betrayal of a close friend in Psalm 41:9, “Even my bosom friend in whom I trusted, who ate of my bread, has lifted his heel against me.” Jeremiah is dismayed to find members of his own family involved in an assassination plot against him; “…even your kinsfolk and your own family, even they have dealt treacherously with you; they are in full cry after you” (Jeremiah 12:6).''. Persecuted families, Bible Gateway

My cherished Christian friend Chris wrote this: 'Words from men and women are powerful. Words from our parents are very powerful. They are what help mould us and create our character. When words from our parents are sharp, cruel or offensive and thrown at us without love we are left with wounds. Often wounds that leave deep scars. But the words of Jesus Christ are sharper than any two-edged sword. They are truth and they are life. The word of God heals all wounds. When you are strengthened by the word of God no weapon fashioned against you shall prosper. Listen carefully Sister Julie. Your relative's words even though they were hurtful and cruel have not been able to penetrate your meek and humble character. This is a miracle, this means the love of God has been established in your life long before you were born. Despite persecution from your own relative you still remain loving and caring. This is truly the glory of God.

a Rhema word given by Beloved Jesus to the church elder of the Healing Rooms to tell me.

I was told by my ex Deacon cherished Christian friend Bruce, that I needed to build my self worth up after years of abuse by my relative.  A week later I attended my local Christian Healing Rooms, and low and behold Beloved Jesus told the Director M....a Rhema Word to tell me.  The Rhema Word was in Jeremiah 31vs. 3 and 4..." I will build you up again..and you will be rebuilt.'' This occurred on 02/11/16.  I thank my Beloved Jesus.

my Christian prose

The wrought-iron gate swung open, Father and I walk along the path up to the Rectory. A blue wren sings a sibilant note in the branches above. A book of homilies in my hand as My Father Jesus reads to me a verse. I read His love for me in every chapter of my Holy book. As I read to Him His living Word in the verses of my Bible, my Father reads me. I read His love for me in every chapter of my life. His gaze is loving and His countenance looks upon me. His words are soft and maniloquent and He speaks to my heart like a Romantic author and poet. He writes pages to me on our walk along the path and I hear His Word as promises…. to me in a love letter in Spirit. The birds sing songs of praise as I read His love letter to me as poetry and fidelity in Spirit. A love letter in Spirit, He tells me that He delights in me and that I am a sweet rose in bloom. Like the velvety red roses in the cultivated garden and like the climbing rose on the wall of the Parsonage. By Julie Ralphs 

a sweet little allegory By Julie Ralphs

' As the hart panteth after the water brooks,
 so panteth my soul after thee O'God.'  Psalm 42:1
 
The little blue and crimson finch sings in the boughs.  His sweet conversation to the deer as he pants at the water brooks, refreshing his spirit. His gentle eyes take in the hues of the Chapel-like forest, and the leaves of friendship fall about their timid love. The flowers, He fills with a fragrance in the grove.  I receive into my spirit faith that bears a flower and a life full of joy, peace, love, kindness and all the fruits of His nature.

 
A little butterfly with gossamer wings in a poetic dance of joy frolicks on the unfurling petals of a pink virgin rose. The little fawn sniffs delicately and she settles on it. ' By Julie Ralphs
 
This is a sweet allegory that discusses the fruit of the Holy Spirit, Galatians 5: 22-23.  THe fruit of the spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, faith, meekness, temperance, and the nature of the little fawn.

my prose by Julie Ralphs

In the sitting room, Fanny sobs as she is read as a classical novelette by Natalie.  A nu-Bronte in ‘ Sence and Sensibility’, in the NEXT ROOM at the Grange.  Fanny’s fluffy compendium is left on the drawing table.  The diary opens a window to another worldly portrait of her as a modern day heroine and not a sketch of a lady of English middle class life as penned in the eighteenth century.

Its leafs are filled with the sweetness of countenance and her little love petal notelets that are tied together in a soft lace.  In her own private language- sweet pony prayers that belong to the language of the soul.  A canvas sketches her, where she sits there as though painted there.  Her black hair disposed in glossy ringlets falls softly abut her visage.

There are quiet conversations but it is only in the opening chapter of Jane Austen’s book.  Dining at Thrushcross Lodge are the Middletons, the analogy is taken indoors.  Fanny puts away her needlework, as her Gentleman caller arrives.  Holding out a hand in a long primrose- coloured  glove, there is a sweet but serious kiss.  And with a playful tone in her words, ‘ Must I pour out his tea, Papa’. Papa was impressed with her voice, look and air.  He smiled upon her,’My dear Fanny’.  A tray was brought of old Worcester porcelain.  The bourgeois cosiness and domesticity revisited.

Among the lace in the bosom of her silk dress.  Edward’s picture was in a tiny locket about her neck.  Fanny sits down to the pianoforte and plays something appropriate to love’s young dream, love’s ephemerioe.  He stood beside her in a cream waistcoat with gold and onyx buttons and took up his glasses, a little book of her nature poems in hand, came to life in her soft lyrics.

Aunt Anne looked up from her Romantic novel in her velvet chair.  She read the maniloquent words in the pages of her life.  Her cameo ring, reminded her so much of her mistress.  Fanny’s portrait next to the still-life’s seemed to stare back in astonishment.  A soft and tender smile seemed to come through the ether like the warmth and perfume of a flower.  The fictional young lady is re-invented by an authoress to be the heroine of something other than just her own life.  

Her  hands gloved in French grey, were crossed one over the other.  She blushed a smile so sweetly kind.  Edward interrupted her reverie. ‘ There is a painting in her face’ he writes.  And then his eyes fixed upon a portrait in the drawing room, which was filled with the rich odour of roses.  And they strolled towards the door that led down a path into the parsonage garden.  Two butterflies fluttered past them.  The wrought –iron gate, opens to Edward’s thought of an erotic plate of his mistress in a lacey frock swinging in a garden seat,  sat on the mantelpiece.

With her black ringlets streaming in the light summer breeze in sepia.  Edward slipped a notelet and key into the seam of her petticoat.  The flowers of the ephemeral  sewn into her panties.   A book in her hand, and a pony read of Fanny Hill.  He sees her, his mistress and governess in spirit at the Rector’s garden.  They meet in secret and walk through to the grove.  He meets her with a love letter in a dream.

 Fanny lies on the grass with the letters, and Edward makes her a bracelet out of the pink and white daisies.  She reads to him some nature verse  from a little book by  Emily Dickinson. In her lap lies Edward and  a soft embroidery of the Manor and the Estate. Her book of homilies.

Under the shady boughs and the pink laburnum and lengthening vistas, sits the realm Seamstress on the garden seat with her sketches of her, and Edward’s letters are tied in a religious lace in the pages of her diary as a kind of narrative coverture. By Julie Ralphs @ copyright 

Psalm 27:10

I remind myself that Jesus has a mother's heart, after my parent's abuse of me and the scripture verse ' When my mother or father forsake me, God will take care of me.' Psalm 27:10 ...exposition verse 10:-'When my father and my mother forsake me. These dear relations will be the last to desert me, but if the milk of human kindness should dry up even from their breasts, there is a Father who never forgets. Some of the greatest of the saints have been cast out by their families, and persecuted for righteousness' sake. Then the Lord will take me up. Will espouse my cause, will uplift me from my woes, will carry me in his arms, will elevate me above my enemies, will at last receive me to his eternal dwelling place.'

a little bear from me to you and a proof of a word of knowledge given by Beloved Jesus

A proof of one of  the word(s) of knowledge given to the church elders to tell me at the Healing Rooms.  Dear Lord, help me spread your fragrance, wherever I may go! Jesus gives words at the Healing Rooms for people.  

a letter from my Director friend of my local Christian Healing Rooms

Hi Julie, 

Yes Graham Cooke is a great teacher and you would enjoy reading and learning from him. And as you stay close to Beloved Jesus, you will hear His  voice, and not listen to the voice of strangers, as Jesus said. Yes psychics and others do hear voices too from the dark realm, but as you know the devil is a counterfeit, a liar and a deceiver. He will copy what our good Father has given to us. And now that you belong to Jesus you can keep close to Him and hear His voice. The secular world doesn't understand all of this. but Jesus does, and Holy Spirit will guide you.

" Most assuredly I say to you, he who does not enter the sheepfold by the door, but climbs in some other way, the same is a thief and a robber. But he who enters by the door is the shepherd of the sheep. To him the doorkeeper opens and the sheep hear his voice and he calls his own sheep by name and leads them out. And when he brings out his own sheep, he goes before them and the sheep follow him, for they know his voice. Yet they will by no means follow a stranger, but will flee from him, for they do not know the voice of strangers." John 10:1-5.

Graham Cooke can probably give you better teaching than I can, but from these verses it seems that Jesus is saying that we who are His sheep, will know his voice. We may hear the voice of strangers, but will not listen to or follow them, Don't you love what Jesus says, that he calls us by NAME, He knows your name Julie! You are special to Him..

So bless you Julie is your walk with Beloved Jesus, as you stay close in His presence, just as Elisha listened to God and heard so clearly from Him.

With love and blessings,

....................

he heard the kings most private words in his spirit

I'm reading about Elisha in ''Qualities of a Spiritual Warrior- An interactive journal', by Graham Cooke.  page 19.
'In 2 kings 6, he single handedly stopped the king of Syria from defeating Israel.  The Prophet kept receiving words of knowledge about the Syrian's plan.''
  A little like the words of knowledge we received for me at the local Healing Rooms by Beloved Jesus in the spiritual battles over my mother.  Elisha's close relationship with God made him privy to the plans of the enemy.  He heard the most private words of the king in his spirit, like I hear Jesus and a wicked relative's schemes.

''Elisha even knew what was being said in secret meetings in the king's palace bedroom, as we read in 2 kings 6:8-9, 11-12:

        Now the king of Syria was making war against Israel; and he consulted with his servants, saying ''My camp will be in such and such a place.'' And the man of God sent to the king of Israel, saying, ' Beware that you do not pass this place, for the Syrians are coming down there.'

        Therefore the heart of the king of Syria was greatly troubled by this thing; and he called his servants and said to them, '''Will you not show me which of us is for the king of Israel?"  And one of the servants said, " None my lord, o king; but Elisha, the prophet who is in Israel, tells the king of Israel the words that you speak in your bedroom.''

a word in season

An excerpt of an sms text message from my beloved Christian brother Bruce Goodall, who was a Deacon and like a Pastor to a flock of His lambsies. Jesus says in the Bible to His Disciples - ' Feed my Flock'.

Bruce wrote to me:- " Dear Julie, your peace of mind must be anchored to what God's WORD says to you and not what anyone else says to you.  I believe that you will grow robust and strong as you do the relaxed verbal affirmation exercises I have described to you. The soft sensitive flower that wilts whenever contrary winds blow, will grow strong like a sunflower that turns its face towards the Sun (Son), regardless of any breeze, and follows the radiant Sun as it tracks across the Heavens.  God bless you dear Julie.''

I had been told by my beloved Christian friend that I ' need to spend time to build up my self- worth after my parent's years of abuse. I attended my local Christian Healing Rooms and asked beloved Jesus in prayer to kindly give a word to the church elder for me, and low and behold Jesus gave a word to my Director friend of the Healing Rooms to tell me. It was the scriptural word in Jeremiah 31 verses 3 and 4- " It says God will rebuild me.' I thank my Beloved Jesus! happy dance

I attended my local Healing Rooms on October '16.

Here are some notes from the church elders in the session:-

Is 54:17 AMP
Eph 6:10-18 AMP Armour

You are in Jesus- His blood covers you, Jesus became a curse so you will not be cursed- He broke the power of the curse for you.


You are my beautiful child Jesus says.

Sharon said ' I am the righteousness of Christ'.  Declare this.  Don't have to keep declaring it over and over to a situation.  The WORD of God stands and is active and working.

Don't fear.  I said I was such a silly lamb jokingly.  Elders said they found me as a fearful lamb that day.

Elders said- ' Don't give your mother's words ' voice'- no power.

Don't attribute power to them.